#5

Johor Bahru <3

Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 7:10 PM

we'll get through this.
you wll pull out stronger than
you were when you came in.
i know, there were rough time,
but there were the good times too.
i hope when you think of me,you
know im thinking of you too.
and, that you also know know that, i miss you.
you are there when i'm a mess
talk me down from every ledge
you give me strength
It's another day I'll spend forgiving
And another night
I wish I could get back
So if you'll sit and stay and talk with me awhile
I'll tell you to hold on
To this scene
As it passes us by.

YES I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THAT I'M OFFICIALLY AT HOME :D

Just gimme abit of LOVE

Thursday, September 25, 2008 @ 8:05 PM

Someday, everything will come together.

But until then, live it up; do what makes you happy.

If someone doesn't agree, then fuck them.

Pick yourself up & deal when shit happens.

Remember that mistakes only make us stronger,

everything happens for a reason,

the only regrets you have in life are

the risks that you didn't take,

& well-behaved women rarely make history.

Above all else, go with your gut & guard your heart.

This is my room - mate. Look at her jugs o_0'' She wanted me to say that on my blog. <3

there will always be people you look back on and wonder

" why the hell was i ever friends with them? "

I'm Not Worthy

Saturday, September 20, 2008 @ 9:18 PM

I’ll start this broken heart

I’ll fix it up so it will work again

Better than before

Then I’ll star in a mystery

A tragic tale of all that’s yet to come

Fingers crossed there will be love

But I get carried away with every day

And every fantasy

The deeper the wound,

The harder I swoon and wish that that was me

There's so much to say

But no words to convey

The loneliness building with each passing day

But I’m getting used to it

You have to get used to it

I’ll devise the best disguise

A brand new look and take them by surprise

They’ll never guess what’s not inside

I’ll express myself with ease,

With confidence and character complete

With fingers crossed, they’ll talk to me

But I get carried away with every page

In every magazine

The cheaper the thrill

,the deeper I fill my head with blasphemy

There's so much to say

But no words to convey

The loneliness building with each passing day

But I’m getting used to it

You have to get used to it

I’ll destroy this useless heart

I’ll fuck it up so it’ll never beat again

Not just for me but for anyone

But I get carried away

With every phrase and made up malady

The longer I hide behind these lies,

The more I disintegrate

There's so much to say

But no words to convey

The loneliness building with each passing day

You never get used to it

You just have to live with it

6 MORE DAYS!!

我不配

Friday, September 19, 2008 @ 5:28 PM

Life doesn't hurt until you think about it,

how much things have changed.

Who you've lost along the way,

and how much of it was your fault.

Woooo. Sort of excited bout going home but not really too :S You should know why if you were a friend.

Had like this arguement with this person:( Can't really be bothered because she was the one who ambil barang saya and like ambil kunci saya to ambil barang untuk kawan dia. :D Whatever. Then when I was trying to be nice, I heard she bitched about me. Whatever lah. So hard to be friends with those sort of people.

She's been hurt many times before this.

You'd think it would be a routine by now.

You'd think she wouldn't let this get to her.

But the truth is, she trusted you

Listening to : Haunted / Evanescence

By the way your hands were shaking.

Saturday, September 13, 2008 @ 3:50 PM

Wooooo Lotsa picture next :D Over due pictures from work experience <3>

First day

GABBY, LIS <3

You hate us cause we're just too cool for you.

Name tags!

GABZ, ASH.

Can you say Supre much?

Second day

Our birds of paradise is too cool for you.

Subway much :D

Noelle=Hangover.

Ashley

Third Day

Train <3

ANITTTAAAAA

Us cool kids on the block

After this photo, I actually fell down.

WTF?

:D love ashley's face.

Them so called cool kids.

I realised that I could draw things with my tongue! :D T for Teri!

Fourth day

LUNCH

KT CRYSTAL

Say bye bye bar.

And these random pictures are just updates from my life :D

Jacqui <3

I did sports!! :D Basketball

I was trying to take a picture of me but this picture of Jacqui was super funnnyyy

Climbing the fence <3

Skateboarders Prohibited but it didn't say anything bout Climbers.

I think this is a hell cool photo.

And I took it <3

C-A-M-I-L-L-E!!! Healthy Lifestyle Expo.

Soccceeerrrr!! A-Team ya'll

Yes I walked to school :D

Exercise!

Gabby and I found this photo in a pharmacy.. And obviously we thought it was hell funnnyyy. GABBBBYYYY GET STIFFFF <3

We did not change as we grew older;

we just became more clearly of ourselves.

HAHAHAHAHA

Our own little Justin Timberlake.

A box full of memories that make you cry;

Do you burn them to forget your pain?

Or keep them to remember how great it all was?

HAHAHAHAH OHMYGOD. I think I'm pretty awesome :D Had an awesome time with JT today woooooooo

Still feeling crappy.

Sooooooo funnnyyy today. People making out in the train, calling people losers who skateboard, getting evils, indian staring, stupid faces. Good times.

I would just like to say..

everyday of my life, every night

Thursday, September 11, 2008 @ 7:44 PM

you turned my world upside down, boy.♥

i'm not going to stress over you anymore. it isn't worth it.

i tried to work something out, but you ignored it. i'm not

trying to say i don't want you, because i definitely do.

all i'm saying is that i'm done with all this.

It's kinda hard with you not around

Know you in heaven smilin down

Watchin us while we pray for you

Every day we pray for you

Til the day we meet again

In my heart is where I'll keep you friend

Memories give me the strength

I need to proceed

Strength I need to believe

My thoughts Big I just can't define

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I still can't believe you're gone

Give anything to hear half your breath

Teri, I think you need to stop dwelling on things already. Just that it's my profile song WOOOOOO. But whatever.

Its finally the weekend. Thank god.

I know you're in heaven smiling down at us :D

Monday, September 8, 2008 @ 9:08 PM

sometimes you just need someone.

someone to make you smile when you're sad

someone to tell you you're beautiful

someone to call you every night

someone to say I love you and mean it

sometimes you just need someone.

Sorry
It's a word that
doesn't exactly
fix everything

feeling fucking depressed now.

wait.

...

I shall refraise that.

Feeling fucking emotional now.

No wait.

Feeling fucking super sadd

Okkkk.

Been listening to Dance with my father :(

My Life's A Beautiful Tragedy <3

Sunday, September 7, 2008 @ 5:26 PM

one smile - can start a friendship.

one word - can end a fight.

one look - can save a relationship

one summer - can change your life.

I'm in the mood for hell blogging now :D

I wanna upload the pictures from work experience from the phone to the computer but I don't know how to especially since this isn't my phone :S

Didn't do much today except go to Hans with Jacqui and played basketball woooooo. <3

Everybody's in such a crappy mood :( aaaawwww. Will list people but no.

I can't wait to go home :D I used to blog like hell alot but now it seems that there's nothing for me to say except like crap. Well I used to talk bout crap last time too but it's kinda different now.

There was this girl who was hell mean but now I don't know what to say to her cause I thought she was my friend but she was actually a bitch :S But hey. That's life. Not like it's the first time I lost a friend to whom I thought would be friend for like ages.

Was reading my past post from like last year and stuff and I found my New Year stuff that I wanted to thank people for being there for me :D Some stuff have changed but some stuff haven't. Also, without like these things happening, I wouldn't know what I would be like now. Maybe a different person? Maybe a NICER person since supposedly everybody hates me so much? Since I'm hell bored I'll copy and paste them :D

- Me being together with him even though we both knew that it was gonna be hard on both of us.

- Me going off to Australia / Perth even though perth's a shit hole it's anyhow better than here.

- ~~Making my first true and good friend there. Jenny. Made life in MLC so much better.~~

- Coming back and seeing him without the longest time I haven't seen him.(?)

- ~~Having my first arguement with this asian bitch there. :) Shows me how tough you have to be in that sorta school.(weird i know)~~ Not true anymore cause I'm friends with her now :D

- Party 100.

- College Sunday. And how everybody noticed me by the only one wearing a black cardi.

- House Singing. Yes we won :)

- Bad experience from ice-skating. Lets not say what happened to me.

- Made even MORE friends in the boarding house. ( yes i was a loner)

- Sharing room with Jenny :)

- ~~Had a massive arguement with her and it almost ruined our friendship but also brought us closer together.~~

- Camp :) Yes good times. Camp 4 rocked.

- Made friends for ~~life~~. Janjara, Sasha,Alex,Alina

- Front Of House :) Ushering. And how the teachers turned up drunk.

- Adrenalin :) Switchfoot. With Sasha and Alina :)

- Year9 Social :)

- Had my labtop trashed by this bitch.

- Awesome time at the beach in winter with Jacqui,Gabby,Paige.

- Somebody stole my ipod. Damn.

- Met JiaHao :)

- Got accused by some bitch bout my best friend.

- Year12 leaving :(

- Room-mates with Jenny again in term

- Alex and me burnt candy. =X

- Darcie's party with condoms.

- Alina's asian dinner :)

- Halloween party with Siran,Kim,Paige

- Shopping with Jacqui in Innaloo.

- Centenary Middle School Leavers.

- City with best bitches.

- Got to spend 11 months with him :)

- Broke up with him after one week.

- Siran staying over from in Malaysia :)

- Driving and getting drunk with her.

- Cam-whoring majorly with her.

- Contacting LAM.- Lam maybe leaving for NS.

- Christmas eve dinner with the best people ever :)

- Lunch with family and seeing them after a year.

- LAM saying that NS got mixed up and he's not going to NS.

- Rejecting and hurting people. :(

- Meeting up with JOANNE after 5,6 years.

- Hearing bout people from old school and laughing.- Shopping like massive lotz.

- CHARLES. :)

- ~~Waiting.~~

Lol. Even though heaps of things changed from then I don't think I regret anything though :D When I thought that Jenny would be my best friend forever I did think that. Well obviously heaps of things change. And reallty fast. So now even though all she can think of is for me to get out of her life. Ok I will. I don't think that after our fight I even talked to you/ bitched bout you. The most I've said bout you to other people is that sometimes I think what it would be like to be friends again. Now after you started talking bout me again, I don't think I can ever think that again. But I just want to say thanks for being there when i needed you.

Thanks for being my friend Jenny.

And I know that people will tell you what I said because the mouths are SO big. You know who you are.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person

that wasn't supposed to let you down, probably will.

You will have your heart broken probavly more than once

and it's harder everytime. You'll break hearts too,

so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast,

and eventually lose someone you love.

So take many pictures, laugh too much,

and love like you've never been hurt

because every sixty seconds you spend upset

is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

I miss the losers back home :(

Shall upload photos from work exp soon <3

Saturday, September 6, 2008 @ 11:13 AM

If you think that I live in a happy and my life is being about bitchy to other people, then. Really do you even know me at all?

Work Experience.