#5

i hate what you have done with me.

Sunday, November 30, 2008 @ 9:52 PM

i fucking love them more than the world.

i feel so fucking emo now :( was gonna blog but don't have the mood to anymore. Rejected more than anything. And I feel so fucking bad about it. Imagine if I followed everybody out just now this wouldn't have happened.

i feel so broken

is there somebody out there who can fix me?

i thought you could.

but you just broke me into more pieces.

and now it'll be even harder for me to be fixed back.

i hate what you're doing to me with your love.

can you stop what you're doing?

you're a womanizer

Saturday, November 29, 2008 @ 8:03 AM

I'M HOMEEEEEEEEEE!!! :D Flight got delayed again till 10.10 at night hahaha. And when I told mum I forgot to tell her we're leaving 10.10 day light savings time! HAHAHAHAHAH :O Oh well.

Came back around 5 and then couldn't go to sleep so facebook,real msn,myspace! :D :D:D:D And started blogging pictures in the morning but felt tired around 7.30 :S So went back to sleep! And now I'm here again finishing my super picture uploading-ness and I haven't uploaded the webcam pictures of me and Kez on our last night :D

Picture update! From like exam week monday? I think I can still remember what we did :D

On Monday after our three hours-ness of science exams, Kez and I went to Subi.

We were going to bayview at first, but MEH.

HAHAHAHAHHA.

My new sunnies!

And we bought boost juice.

OH OH! And also I bought new bathers! :D You'll see them later on.

Then at night we had the boarders christmas dinner. Slash carols chappel thing.

I had a fun time rooming with you for a term and a bit Kiara <3

ROMANIAN!

Dinner was pretty good :D

I'm sure everybody knows who she is HAHAHAH

We got them in the crackers thing! That pully thing. I can't remember what's it called.

Mihaela got a super tiny tiny magnifying glass! Slash plastic?

And of course since everybody could put their on their face, sam of course wanted to put her PAPER clip on her face too!

We hardcore bitch.

This was funny. We were making fun of somebody and I think I said I'm drunk on lemonade slash water and I did this REALLY embarassing laugh. :S

Then we got bored of each other.

DESERT TIME!

Peach fantasia thing :D

That's just sam being weird <3

HAHAHAHAHA. No.

We got really bored of taking photos of ourselves so we resorted to taking pictures of our fingers? We're cool aight.

Of course what would cam whoring be without Jacqui :D

Tuesday after sose exam!!

JESSS LEAVINGGGGGGGG!!! :( HAHAHAH. Gabby drew that right above her crack :D

That was all me :D

Bitch can't believe you're leaving!! :(

Ohmygod ohmygod. This was SO funny. Mihaela drew that on Jess's booby and Jess goes

"You have small hands"

"Well maybe you have small boobs!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHH

Then after that Kiara and I recked to the beach :D

New bathers!

But they look the same because they're black :(

YUMMMMMMMM

But before that, we uploaded good times of singing disturbia :D HAHAHAH

And off to the beach!

There was practically nobody there :D

Let the cam whoring sessions begin.

We got sunburnt :(

My hair looks spastic there.

:D You think you gangsta.

Kez likes that photo and guess who took it? ME.

Time to go back to school! :(

Went to bayview on the way back :D

On wednesday went to the city with Ida :D

Had lunch in dome.

Ida CLAIMS that curry burns her tongue! HAHAHAHAHHAA.

Then we got boost! :D

Our door of commitment.

My messy room when it was packing time!

It actually looks hell rank.

I feel like telling himmmm. :( But macam like how? I'm sure he'd be like wtf. I'm going crazy now. Alamak wtf. How jadi disturbia already = =

You changed my whole life

Don't know what you're doing

To me with your love.

just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 7:34 PM

Super depressed. They took down my internet on my laptop hahahaha :D Was gonna do a super picture blog today but I don't have internet on my laptop and i cbf transfering them to the school computer LOL. So i shall do the update when I go home :D

Didn't do much in the city today. Had dome for lunch then went off to have Boost again.

My sunburn is really hurting me :( And it's like all merah. I nampak macam a fricking lobster :( Alamak. How to balik kampung like this man? So no face wan.

My room is a complete messs hahahha. Shall take photo of it :D But it's cleaner now. Than it was beforee. I don't know how I can live in a place that looks like that.

Shit man. Tomorrow got fricking peer leadership thing. I swear it's just a waste of time. We could be beaching it again or doing something else :D Like these three days. YEW. Can't wait to go home. So many plans. Bell's boyfriend's birthday, Shaun's birthday YEW. HAHAHAHAH.

But how to pergi when I nampak like a fricking lobster man? = =

Tired already. Going to have a shower then pack more then go to bed :D

I was born to tell you I love you,

Isn't that a song already?

And it's true I can't go on without you,

Your smile makes me see clearer

if you could only see in the mirror what I see.

200th post :D

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 10:46 PM

My 200th post :D

Was gonna do a super picture update from weekend until today but couldn't be bothered and I'm really tired even though I slept in the afternoon. Zzzz

Well exams went alright I guess. Science ones wasn't as hard as I thought it would be cept for chemistry of course = = I can tell I failed chem hhahaha

After science exams on monday was gonna come back to the bhouse to study for sose the next day but did that happen noooo. Came back and watched prom night with Kiara even though i've seen it like 2102950395830953 times. Then I wanted to go to bayview for credit but we ended up in Subi :D Didn't study at all that day.

Tuesday. Which is today hahahah. After sose exam was gonna pack to go back and stuff. But did that happen? Nope. Went to the beach with Kiara :D I love our roomie spending days. They always turn out super super funny like today. Will blog bout it tomorrow. We got sunburnt too!

Wednesday. Was gonna pack. But going out with Ida :D I think we're just spend it in bayview tomorrow hahahaha.

That picture looks hell happy :D and they were indeed good times. If our whole life was like that picture wouldn't that be just wonderful?

Was glad talking to him but not really cause I think he jsut rejected me :( Gabby said that she's never seen me this happy before cept when I talk to him :( sif. He'll just probs leave me broken hearted and depressed.

Shall go to sleep now. Gonna wake up tomorrow morning to go to breakfast then going back to bed! HAHAHAHAAHAH.

Shall blog again tomorrow.

Baby, when we first met

I never felt something so strong

You were like my lover, and my best friend

All wrapped into one, with a ribbon on it.

kiara's got her asian mafia.

Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 7:36 PM

MEH. Spent the whole day studying todayy. I think I'm gonna die :( Plus on top of that, I feel super duper sick. I just wanna sleep till wednesday.

I actually don't believe that this year's over. I thought it would take forever to end. But surprisingly it hasn't.

Urge to talk to him :( It's just so weird. I don't know him but I do? I'm not sure. I know that you like her and I would never get a chance but I can't help thinking bout somebody who doesn't care. :( I want somebody to talk to :( I miss my chats with Felicia.

May give up studying any moment now. Already taking a break to blog and I'm not supposed to.

Everybody's having problems don't you think? It's just so confusing. What would it be like to live in a care free world? And where nobody had to live with problems. HAH. Fat chance. Thought that line just sounded good and wanted to add it in.

Would take a picture of my messy desk with all the crap papers but I won't. I'm thinking how I'll act in yr12. I'd probably kill myself since I feel like I'm dying in yr10. WTF.

Maybe as the 'friend' says, It's getting tiring always acting and putting on this really stupid act for everybody. Then I'm guessing don't put on the act for everybody or anybody. I mean who do you have to please?

I need to blog to release the thoughts on physics and bio. So not helping. Well.. Maybe it is a little. But it's so hard to study with people making noises outside and fricking yr8's jumping around and screaming :( I should've gone out today to study. But MEH. Knowing myself I won't get it done hahahahaha.

Also, I'm feeling super super moody. :( And no it's nothing to do with hormones. LOL. I think it's cause of the stupid exams and like I really wanna talk to him :(

Kiara's said " I'm Kiara and I love myself. I'm kiara and I go to a private school! "

Library on Saturday with Alex.

Nothing else to say. I can't study anymore. I actually think I might go crazy. I don't know how other people can do it :( But I really can't.

He's online now. After the whole time. But he doesn't wanna talk to me :( Apparently he's busy.

Where were you when I said I love you?

And where were you when I cried every night?

No one knew all the pain I went through

All the love I saved deep down inside my heart for you.