Why can't you just leave me be?
Thursday, January 29, 2009 @ 11:40 AM
Super picture update since I was supposed to go to Sentosa today but didn't end up going so I'm sitting my lame ass here blogging :D But first, some shout outs for some people here <33>
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY ALINA BABYYY!! <33 (for 27th)
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BAYLA! (for today 29th)
You know, me and bayla used to be best friends. We still are but we have our own lives far apart from each other now. And there was this guy called Chong Wei and everybody used to like him LMAO. *points finger and HP* And Bayla's birthday was on the 29th, then Chong Wei's birthday on the 30th then my birthday on the 31st! So pretty hectic stuff hey. HAHAHAHA.
But picture update.
The
three
wacko cousins.
The cousins and the niece.
Seafood dinner.
Just because boy doesn't wanna take photos.
This adorable thing is called Gemma.
Not talking about the one in the blue shirt.
She's so cute.
Reunion dinner firecrackers.
It's the CNY food.
Don't have any pictures from CNY itself but will steal some from Teri's camera. The other Teri. But somehow this is the photo I have. It seems to be my not so old uncle slash granduncle whateverrr. Me no remember his name. But he's a pilot :D
The waterfall.
Yesterday we went to the spa.
They had activities for the children while old people went to the spa.
Their eating place slash restaurant is so cool.
Dining pool or something.
Nephew.
Random pictures coming up due to boring-ness waiting for people to get the car.
OH OH.
Pretty awesome place.
Would be reccomended :D
If you come to jb, should really come to this spa. Even though it's abit out of the way, really worth it.
Why hello there Kelman Scott Wolf Costin <33>
Their brochure.
Soooooo bored.
Last photo of the day.
Oooooohhhh. I started talking to Jona bout music righttt. And he introduced this screaming band to me... I know. But they're sooooooo good! HAHAHAHAH. And apparently girls don't listen to this kinda music? :O *smacks*
Oh and was webcam-ing with silly last night. HAHAHAHAHHA. That was funnnnyyy. I print screened :D Hold on I shall get photo. SSSSHHHHH. Don't think he reads my blog anyways either. LMAO LMAO.
Gonna cut hair tomorrow :D And do nails. MEH Have to start packing tomorrow too! :( Shiiiiiit. Cause going off to singapore on saturday and staying there till I go back to perthhhh :( Plus! Saturday is my birthday too!!! :( :( Noooooooooooooo. Can't believe two months have gone by. So quickly. MEH. I would be able to webcam with Karyan anymoreeeeee. Or have late night talks with her. HAHAHAHA. What am I talking bout. LOL.
Started talking to one of my friends slash who is like soooooooo much older than me. So I call him kor right then we were like oh yeah happy chinese new year and stuff then we got talking :D:D:D:D:D Wow wow. He's turning 21 this year. wow wow wow. O_O HAHAHAHA.
Karyan just called me and I think I sounded like a man cause I've got a cough and a sore throat lmao lmao. People go to her
blog and click on her ads :D:D YOU BETTTTTEEEERRRR. Please and thank you! Support abit la <3
Been thinking too much bout that loser ass Josh nowadays. da be liew tea ef. Somebody shoot him and get him out of my mind. Actually don't.
Josh,
I would like to get over you to least painest way ever. But I don't think I can. It's really weird you know? Actually you don't do you. I know I may mean nothing to you but yes. Actually how you said it's weird, now I see how you feel. It is pretty weird hey. I'm freaking myself out too lmao. :D But no worries. Do you know I would actually want to tell you all the things I'm feeling now, but it's just hard. I can't wait to see you, but at the same time I'm not sure how I'll react when I see your face. I can't even stand looking at your picture now much less seeing you in person. I'm sorry for lying to you and everybody else. But you have to forgive me. Will you? I know you don't care bout all this. It's a small thing yes I know.
xoxo
Tea oh <3
Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on,
but it hurts too much
I try to forgive,
but it's not enough to make it all okay
If i could cry, my eyes would tell all the secrets I so deeply hide ♥
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
i really wanted to blog.
but suddenly.
i don't have the mood to.
i am so not over you.
but do you know, the things you say really hurt me?
yes i don't believe in true love.
but can't i believe in love for the moment?
...
if i've lived 16 years without you,
another how many years won't kill me.
you really break my heart with the little things that you do.
even though you don't see it as important as i do.
nobody understands.
you're so young teri.
what are you talking about.
i used to see how these girls blogged bout "ohmygod im so in love with you" and think.
pfffft. lame girls.
but now.
it's different.
what the hell are you talking about teri.
i think i shall go back to sleep
even though i slept like the moment we got back.
oh.
we went to the waterfall today.
twas fun.
Sometimes you have something you need to say but you can’t, because the words won’t come out or you get scared or you feel stupid. So, if you could write a song, and sing it, then you could say what you need to say and it would be beautiful and people would listen and you wouldn’t make a complete idiot out of yourself. But all of us can’t be songwriters, so some of us will never be able to say what we’re thinking or what we want other people to know we’re thinking, so we’ll never be able to get the chance to make things right again.
you are almost everything i've wished for.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 @ 8:01 PM
I found God on the corner of 1st and AmistadWhere the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where've you been?"
He said, "Ask anything."
Where were you, when everything was falling apart.
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you?
Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you?
Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Why'd you have to wait, to find me, to find me?
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.
all the single ladies <3
Monday, January 19, 2009 @ 8:35 PM
hey :D
Blogging from thailand. Super bored now. Am waiting for the van to pick us up to head off to some cultural show :D
Went for this thing called flying with the gibbons. Well basically it's like flying from tree to tree hahaha. It was like on amazing race so we were like yay let's go! Lmao
Blogging cause little miss alina wants her picture to go away. But you see. When i go back, i will go back and post millions of pictures of you :D miss you sweetie.
Only tv channel here i watch is mtv. But oh wait. Did i mention it's mtv asia? Lmao. So yes. Lots of asian songs yay! Hahaha. But right now just came on and i can't stop singing it hahaha. I wanna make up i wanna right now wish we never broke up right na na na
I love thailand and stuff but i really wanna go home :( to go home and talking to you on msn. :( i know like hello thailand so much better lmao. Shit i hate it. Get out of my mind.
And can't wait to go home too! If lucky, i'll be able to see karyan. Meeting up wit vicky for dinner or something :D shit i haven't seen that woman since like november? And i won't see her again! Far out. :( hopefully i'll get to see silly when i'm there. He fricking already promised me. Haha. Then when i go back to jb the next day, off the spore we go! Hopefully i'll get to hang with dear alina then going to pick teri up! Hahaha. How confusing. Teri wolf and teri ong :D oh oh! And apparently i don't have three nieces anymore! I have two! And a nephew! Mum thought they were all girls hahaha! Made plans with jill to bring them to danga and drive that thingy hahaha. I was like we're not gonna let like 11 years old kids and under drive! But wait on second thought. Why not?! Hahaha!
Wow. Super wordy post since no pictures and like no picture header :( oh oh hold that thought! I just did! But so troublesome la.
I want my silly :( oh oh. And him of course. Hahaha. Need to do more shopping! :O
Yeah. Shall stop blogging now. Will blog with picture update of thailand when i get back if i have time <3
i'm just a little not too over you.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 @ 2:30 AM
Uh oh
There you go again talking cinematic
Yeah you!
You're charming, got everybody star struck.
I know
How you always seem to goFor the obvious instead of me
But get a ticket and you'll see
If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend
You'd fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play that happy song
(Yeah)Yeah, yeah
When you call meI can hear it in your voice
Oh sure!
Wanna see meAnd tell me all about her
La laI'll be acting through my tears
I guess you'll never know
That I should win
An Oscar for this scene I'm in
Wish I could tell you there's a twist
Some kind of hero in disguise
And we're together
It's for real
Now playing
Wish I could tell you there's a kiss
Like something more than in my mind
I see it
Could be amazing
I FUCKING MISS THIS GIRL
and yes that is a photo from camp year9 2007 ZOMG. I can't believe you were right in front of my eyes and I didn't notice you :( Yes I'm updating because you came to my blog and I hadn't updated yet lmao lmao. I miss you sooooooo much :( You're in singapore now and I'm sorrryyyyy I can't till like 23rd or something :( I wish I could pack you in my suitcase and bring you to thailand with meeee. But I will go to singapore just to see youuu. Just for you :D Oh mygod but seriously you have to stop saying " same phone same phone " It's just gonna make me soooooooooo red. And no it is not cute hahahaha. At first liking the same song was cute but having the same phone and stuff is just random. :D HAHAHAHAHHA. But bitchhhh. I don't think he looks good with that phone. CHANGE! :D No like seriously. I'm the one who's stuck with this phone for like yonks. And you rich bitch should go change :D Go buy sony erricson.
Off to thailand soon. More like tomorrow (thursday) we're off to KL then leaving like early friday morning. Coming back on the 23rd then going straight to singapore to pick up Teri :D Yes she is my cousin from america who has the same name as me omg omg :D But she's like olddddd. And has three kids O_O LMAO I'm an aunty but nothing I'm not used to hahahahaha. But I wanna see my so called neices never met them before haha. They're 11,7 and 3 :D :D How cute hey.
Had a total discussion with little Miss Karyan today. She wanted to give me a surprise but I forced her to tell me what it was. She was gonna call me tomorrow (which is today) to tell me she missed me. aaaaawwwww. Cause her ex-boyfriend/husband to-be called her today to tell her that he missed her. Walao. Please lah. I'm so much better okay. I killed this girl for you man. Batu Pahat girl is history man. Now you can have him for yourself. Eh but now must kill that singaporean girl lah. lmao. I go get mafia since she so scared of malaysians hahahahah. Walao somemore the surprise she give her boyfriend for v.day gonna be so damn sweet lah. DABELIEW TEA EF MAN. I want boyfriend to give me that kinda surprise too but not really cause it's so fricking expensive. :S Doubt her boyfriend reads my blog so I'm gonna say what the surprise is. Walao she's taking him to the rotating tower/building thing for v.day. Walao. And she called and checked prices and shit. So expensive man. Walao. O_O HAHAHA. I got her to say walao now and now she's saying it all the time hahaha. :D
Well MEH. It's like 2am now and I'm dead tired but can't really go to sleep since I slept in the car just now. Oh oh. Had a random road trip today. Went to muar/batu pahat today for mum's friend's mum's funeral. Mum's friends came over at like 3ish then left. Brought my laptop along so I could watch OC in the car hahahahahah :D Just gave me like a stupid bitch of a headache. :( Reached bout 5ish then had tea and that place has like a weird way of cooking chicken rice :S But it was good :D Stayed at the friend's house till around 8. Didn't know that they were buddhist or whatever so had to put the burning thing. Awkwarddd cause everybody was staring when I didn't wanna see the body :S :( SSSSSSHHHHHHHHH. Mum got lost coming back and we almost ended up like in a dark abandoned road which wasn't really abandoned just like really scarrryyyyy. Oh oh. Had seafood for dinner :D Soooooooooo good. And her friend was like vegetarian but only for tuesdays? That's hell cool. Like different diets. Should try it out. Lose weight lose weight!
Shall stop blogging.
XX
all eyes on me in the center of the ring just like a circus
Saturday, January 10, 2009 @ 11:34 PM
And yes gonna be super emo blog. Babe's gone cause it's 11 plus and she has to go cause her mum's nagging her to get off the computer :( And this song is how I feel now.
Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Some how I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go
Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go
And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life
Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go
Singaporeeeeee <3 Pictures with felicia though :( So these are the only photos I have :S
Why she so sexy huh..
Yes depressing post but don't know what to say. Don't really have the mood to. I just wanna say that I wanna kill a certain person now. It is a her. She's the one staying at my place now :@ AIYAHHHHHHHH.
Shall stop blogging.
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I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
And yes gonna be super emo blog. Babe's gone cause it's 11 plus and she has to go cause her mum's nagging her to get off the computer :( And this song is how I feel now.
