#5

dead but still breathing.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009 @ 7:34 PM

Why oh hello wordy post.

Defs in the mood now to blog. Don't know why suddenly feeling damn moody lmao. I blame the song that came up.

You know, when I liked J all he caused me was pain and crying every night. I asked God what I did to deserve this. But I did. I hated my mum and treated her like crap. So yes. That I deserved I understand the pain. Of him not caring. I liked him for five long months and been with him longer than that. All the hurtful things you've said to me, I've taken it in and haven't said a word about it. I've asked you bout the rc since last year and yes you've agreed. Then last minute you back out on me and say it's my problem. I mean come on it would've been three hours of your life and the excuse you gave me was you had exams and you didn't have any appropriate clothing? I mean come on my date WENT OUT to purposely buy a shirt and tie for the stupid thing. And you couldn't even make an effort? This love was taking to much of my energy. I needed to give up. Then S comes along and I thought thank you God for sending somebody to help me forget about J. But stupid girl drama I lost a friend thanks to him. Never ending arguements that I just wanna thank you for not wanting to make it any worse. So ok. Back home new stuff new term to start with.

Oh stupid G. I kinda figured out you had a girlfriend and shit (; I was prepared you know, to let go of everything. I was praying the other night and I was talking to God. I told him how I thought that he thought I wasn't good enough for you. You know, don't deserve somebody like you. You're like so perfect. You're religious believe in God, go to church. You're so nice. Good with kids (; zomg-sototally good sense of style much. (quite) You're smart. So parents kid much. Mummy's boy :p. You have like the best family ever. Such a nice brother who's soooo silly. But you know, just not meant to be. So I'm guessing I'm learning to accept for the fact that I am just jinxed with problems for maybe like the rest of my life?

You know what? I'm not gonna let this bring me down. I'm not gonna question God. I'm just gonna have faith in him and let him bring me in the direction I need the most.

I'm listening to I'm not missing you. (; This is exactly the song that I am feeling now.

Oh and to make things worst. You how you think that you're over somebody but actually you're really not? I was in the car the other day and this song came up which made me think of you J. And frankly. I'm not missing you anymore :D I think finally I'm ready to let go of you.

Thanks for keeping me company and hurting me. I won't thank you now but I will one day. Cause the hurt you've caused will prevent me from doing anything stupid again. Or try to. looool I'm sure we'll still be friends one day.

Goodbye Josh.

under the moonlight knowing that you were mine.

Sunday, April 19, 2009 @ 11:59 PM

BAHA. Oh how I miss the good old times. <3

updated and now I shall depart.

i just wanna make you holla.

Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 8:49 PM

Today went to city square with Hooi Ping. We went to watch friday the 13thhh.

Shit at first it started off right. The fricking killer killed all of them in like 5 minutes. We were likeeee. The movie finish alreadyyy? LOOOOL. But yes quite funny. The place was filled with really funny people. There was this one part yeh and the guy in the movie looks at the hole in the wall and I told Hooi Ping and I was like shiiiiiiiit it's the fucking mother's head! And she was like shut up no it isn't. Then there was this guy sayinggg

Lao bu de tou la! Lao bu de tou la!

Ohmygod funniest thing. Also got updated on the goss back in school .Shit as if ANYBODY would like azy man. That girl must have seriously messed up mind but it's pretty funny anyways. I really wanna go visit the old school but talk about awkward much. Will upload the pictures soon-ish but cbf putting them on my laptop.

Oh awesome stylo times slash ew to the guy but oh well. Gt's gt's ages ago. Bought awesomeee bag :D Shit ok. We went to the photo place to get pictures and shit and we saw these weirdest people like punks but like worse shit with green hair and ohmygod I never thought I would find them here it was really weird. It felt like being in the city back in school again.

I can't remember what else I was supposed to blog about cause we had this pact thing that we would blog about today. OH HOOI PING IF YOU'RE READING THIS THE GUITAR HERO GAME DOESN'T WORK = = oh. And if the guy doesn't call me when I'm here can you check on the thing for me? :D THANKSSSSSS.

When we were on the wayy back, we saw these guysss and his friend was checking Hooi Ping outtt (; but the other one was cuteee. Oh and also! Chinese with perfect english! Ohmygod! :D He made my dayyy like his english was like SOOOO GOOD. But I bet he was singaporean lol. But oh no I don't think so!

So yes. Pretty wordy post due to the lacking of pictures but good no?

Oh and as my bestie for lyfe says. Sorry guys for not uploading and my anticipated post from me is finally here! :D HAHAHAHAHH Karyan sure gets this.

I miss you S.

lie to me and say everything will be fine.

Friday, April 10, 2009 @ 8:48 PM

TeRi

hello my name is Teri and I think you're the sexiest person alive.
Charlotte
why hello Teri
i am Charlotte and pretty sure i want you in my pants
TeRi
could you please be my rough endoplasmic reticulum?

Charlotte
yes i am tired of being smooth
i would love to be your ribosomes
TeRi
thats as far as my knowledge on endoplasmic reticulum go hahahah
Charlotte
mine toooo

BAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH

Oh how I miss this girl.

this aint a fairytale.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 10:11 PM