#5

8th/1month.

Monday, October 26, 2009 @ 5:44 PM

happy anniversary.
even though we have been with each other for a short period of time,
it feels like we've been together for ages.
with the amount of drama we've been through it's unbelievable.
i remember it was the 7th month we've been together.
but not officially.
who knew you would do something this surprising?
now, it is our 8th month.
but 1month officially. which dates do we go by?
it doesn't matter.
so long as we have each other.
i do not promise to love you forever,
but i will as long as we go.
i appreciate you being more of a friend when needed than a boyfriend,
and being a boyfriend than a friend in situations.
i'll be here whenever you're down to be your friend, and also a girlfriend.
you told me to listen to this song.
now, i can't stop listening to it.

If ever you needed to talk

You could talk to me

Oh, could you talk to me?

If ever you feel like you're lost

You can count on me

I’ll find you a way

When the lights go out

In the Universe

I’ll be next to you

And I surrender myself

To you I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always

Together we’ll be

I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always

Together we’ll be

If ever you’re too sick to walk

I’d carry you

And take care of you

If ever you feel scared and alone

I’d hold you

And I’d just hold you

When the lights go out

In the universe I’ll be next to you

I’ll be next to you

And I surrender myself

To you I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always

Together we’ll be

I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always

Together we’ll be

And when you get cold

Just like you do

I’ll give you my coat

Cause I’m here for you

And as we grow old

I promise to love you with every breath

That is true

When the lights go out In the universe

I’ll be next to you

You’ll be next to me

And I surrender myself

And I surrender myself To you

I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always Together we’ll be

I’ll love you forever

I’ll like you for always

For always

concerts.

Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 4:50 PM

Ok so for my 300th post i'd like to announce something really exciting!

I'M GOING TO SEE THESE TWO BANDS LIVE SOOOOOOON!!!

so fyi, if you don't know who they are,

COBRA STARSHIP

OWL CITY

ftw!

ok bye.

i just wish we were each other's to have.

Sunday, October 11, 2009 @ 10:53 PM

i keep telling myself it's just puppy love.

why must all this happen? Even though I may not believe in it, you give me a flicker of hope that makes me believe just that tiny bit. You make me feel things that nobody has made me felt before. i want to wake up with a smile knowing that I'm loved and you'll wake up with the exact same face too. i love how when i walk into the room, your face lights up and smiles and as i walk over you wrap me in a big hug holding each other like there's no tomorrow.

going out with your family and being as one is one of those happiest moments i'll have. the feeling of belonging when i'm with your family. when your mum comes up to me to talk to me in private telling me she's happy that her son has found somebody who's worth. these feelings of being with you, why won't they go away? They make me feel, cry, joyous moments, sorrow all at the same time. Do you feel these things? do you even feel the slightest thing?

you say you love me or try to but i make it difficult for you. i never meant for myself to let out signals like that. so i wrote you a letter. expressing everything i've felt, everything left unspoken, everything we did, every single detail jotted down on a piece of paper. the diary of even the story of our lives.when i handed it to you, you could tell i was on the verge. but still, i handed it to you with full confidence even though i didn't feel it inside me. you gave me a hug while you read it telling me everything will be ok. i cried as we both started apologising for everything that happened.

i thought everything would be alright after that and happily ever after would occur. but there's no such thing in the real world is there? it's me that's happening. happily ever after doesn't happen.

you would think that we're living in some television drama. the story with the ex, other people, the complications. you break my heart when all this happens and you look at me wanting to take all the pain away. but you can't. i can't.

now, you're acting like the biggest jerk in the entire universe. i understand she is your best friend but how do you think i feel? i know i'm supposed to trust you but sometimes it's too hard knowing she still loves you and having a past with her doesn't help.

i wished that you would tell me how you feel like how i did with you.

today, i received a letter.

but i've already let you go.

baby get shaky after school.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009 @ 11:02 PM

I am gonna breathe slow count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed.

So, I have finally got the wireless back and working. The other day, mum decided to go dvd shopping and I had a dvd list I wanted to get wooo. But I didn't get everything on the list cause mum was going kinda crazy but oh welllll. I slept at 8.30am that night and woke up at 11am. Woo two hours of sleep.

You know how they have pictures saying "you and i will be alright. you know that right?" I'm sorry you and I will NOT be alright.

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i wrote the above on the 6th of october and now it is the 11th of october. I said I would continue this ages ago but couldn't be bothered to. So here I am now doing it.

I have a picture update to do but my internet is being gay so I will do it when I get back to school which is in a few days. School starts on tuesday and usually I fly back on monday but mummy has decided to book my flight differently and not tell me. So just then we were like omg when's my flight cause mum couldn't find my ticket. lol. Now, I am flying back tuesday night wooo.

tiff ho so damn funny can.

i got bored so i updated my itunes then made it so it was the year I was born in (:

how fucking hot is he. omg. I saw the video the other day and I was practically like screaming when this part came up. HELLLO. Omg, you sexy british indian person!

Did you know I worte him a letter? Uh-huh. *Nods heads* It was pretty pathetic I must admit but it was a really heartfelt letter and I took ages writing it, even though reading it after sounded like a 5year old wrote it. This is too much drama for everyone.

Ok I don't know what to blog about.

Bye.

my dear, i'm sorry ;

Friday, October 2, 2009 @ 11:13 AM

i'm back from the singapore trip wasn't that exciting. truth be told, these holidays suck. But none the less, they've been passing too quickly and in a blink of an eye it'll be time for me to go back. Exams here I come.

If you haven't been updated and stalk me as per usual (rofl ), my ear hurts. Like really hurts. Yes they had to cut out that thing on my ear, and now it's non stop bleeding. Seriously, I'm just like a water tap but with blood and outta my ear.

well to link my mood with the picture, mmm i don't know how to describe it. Yeah pretty complicated shit if you ask me. S,M,G. Why make things so confusing, Why can't it just be simple. Ah, bloody life is never simple is it. I'm just gonna have a rant. I know people out there have a life much worse than mine. I know it's cruel to say that but they're facts aren't they? I shouldn't be worried bout these shits who are tools while people worry bout things such as poverty. I want somebody to talk to with this, but I don't. Seriously, giving me your love won't do any good to you.

If you want to know, G claims all this shit I really don't care if you're reading this cause you have no idea how much shit you've put me through. You say you're going through shit too? From me? You make it sound like it's all my fault for going there to study. Why can't I want what's best for me too? How are you so sure we'll be together in a few years time? You want me to give up everything for you? I'm sorry I can't do that as you can't either. I really don't care now if you're playing me or playing her. Your game is dating her while I'm away at school and coming back to me when I'm here? Just stick with her and do us all a favour why don't you. Then I can slowly clear you out of my mind very slowly. You know I'm starting to love you, but I don't know how. How do you want me to?

Everybody says I should accept S. But how? Everybody says I should take him to the ball. I probably will but. There will always be somewhere I feel that I should take G.

The picture below is Danny (: One holiday photo.

On a different note, there's this girl who's really starting to annoy me. Seriously, she thinks she's so cool and all but really. You are so lame going around claiming stuff nobody cares about. I was nice to you because you got teased in school but now you have one other friend in that school and just cause she's popular and pretty doesn't mean you are. If you want to be like that, fine with me too. I hope you know who are you bloody cow.

We were bored when we went to Holland V cause mum was sunnies shopping.

If you want to know what my ear looks like....

Here you go :D It looks bettttter . Baha I got kicked out of my room cause of the lights.

Ok bye. I'm still tired I have no idea why. Might go back to sleep. I want to go dvd shopping ):

You try to get me to love you,
with all your heart,
but I'm tongue tied terrified I might say the wrong thing.